Fiday (25/6/04)

Today the Alive! Conference (which consists of more that 4 churches) started, but i only went for the night service. Not much people was there, but i guess most people went for the morning and the afternoon session... It was great at the meeting - Great worship by Cornerstone church and our very own Bethel Band. The preacher for tt night was Ps Steven Teo is which he preach abt the issue of heart. After the session, went to Lau Pa Sat and had supper with Alan, and Liang Sheng in which after that went back home, slept at ard 2am in the morning...

Saturday - (26/6/04)

After much awaiting, today was the chalet. Yipee... Wake up at 10am in e morning, went downstair to buy breakfast & watch pokemon. After watching, i went to pack my bag 4 the chalet and cut my hair. Took Bus 76 to Marine Parade from my hse and reach east coast park abt 230pm (the right time to check-in) After putting my things, went to rent a bike and cycle all ard the park. Wanted to go for a little suntan session, but the sun wasnt bright so didnt went, instead went to e chalet and slept for a little while b4 i meet a long lost friend for dinner. Managed to find a cab at the lobby of Costa Sand & took it to church for the 2nd night for Alive! Conference. Tonight was even better, the atmostphere was great, not just based on our feeling or emotions, but I BELIEVE with all my heart, that God is at work in the hearts of people. Ps Young, (Senior Ps of Cornerstone Church) pearch abt e Glory of God. Awesome!!! I went for the altar call & God really visited us again. God was ministering to so many lives (including me) till i dun feel like leaving the place. Indeed the Bible said : "One day in the house of the Lord is better that a thousand days in the world" How True is that! After e mtg, took another cab back to the chalet and settle down ard 1130pm...

Sunday - (27/6/04)

Wake up at 9am today cos i need to check out of the chalet b4 1030am. After checking out, i waited for e free shuttle bus that e chalet provide and took the MRT from bedok to alijuned for church. Upon remembering tt i have nt done my CET homework, i quickly do it with my grp members and get things done ASAP. At YA service, God move again in our midst, YA cried out: "Lord, we are nt satificated of where we are, we want to go deeper" Ps Rachel encouraged us to go deeper and press on in God's presence. Ps Weena speaks abt the outpouring of the Holy Spirit & shortly an altar call was made. At first i didnt wan to go out as it does'nt speaks to me. But Ps Rachel called all leaders whose prayer life is nt in right w God to step forth to be prayed for, and i did. Upon reaching the altar, my heart just cried out to God, reaching for the Alimighty... Time and again, tears just rolled down from my eyes. I told God this: "God, let this be more that my own emotions and feelings..." Ps Rachel tells us to dwell longer in God's presence and we simply do that.... ITS REALLY SO SO GOOD TO BE IN GOD'S PRESENCE.

In the altar, I received 3 pictures in my mind, but im nt sure if its from God through. Ps Rachel asked if any of us have any version we could share to e whole YA to enouraged all of us. But i simply doesnt have the courage to step out. Furthermore, im nt v sure if its from God. Nevertheless, here are my versions.

1st Version - When the altar call was 1st open, i was closing my eyes and just wanted to worship God and this pic comes to me - A pic of a knee cap tt was bleeding (rather strange pic when i first saw) the knee cap was full of blood and it has an open wound, i believe the Lord is saying this at that moment, tt many people in YA is like the knee cap bleeding, inside our heart is full of hurt, pain, discouragement, and therefore inside the heart, its bleeding... Its bleeding so bad that it becomes a stronghold in our life, becos of e hurt and pain, its becomes a blockage to allow God to minister into our life. The Lord is saying, "let me, sons/daugthers, heal ur wound... I understand wad u r going through, just give urself to me, take my yoke for it is easy n light".

In our worship the last few months, we couldnt be able to breake through into a higher ground, we keep hitting the celing. (Maybe tt the reason behind it, but i dun know) That's wad Ps Rachel realised and also say that she's sick of it. Personally i think, im sick of it too... Is YA playing a game of religion?

2nd Verison - I saw a bird, a mother bird... in its mouth was full of worms, and upon flying, it settle down and gave each of the worms to its little children that couldnt fly yet in the nest that the mother bird build. The Lord shown me another thing, is that God is willing like the mother bird to feed us with His word/pour out so much that we over-flow, but r we willing to take so much that we say Lord You're more that enough for us?

3rd Version - the shortest of all e 3, the Lord shown me a staircase, a rather long stairway all the way up... (Im nt sure if im climing on this stair), but it seems like i'm looking up to this stair & saw many many steps up, and at the end of the stairs, there was an open door, a bright light was shining from tt door... But somehow it disappear justlike that. Was that the steps leading to Heaven? I dun know, i really dun know abt this...

All i can say is that, its so amazing how God move when His people devote themselves to Him... Of all the 3 versions, the 1 that spoke to me was the 1st version... I know in my heart, its nt the end of everything when the service ended but it was the beginning of everything, of a fresh new thing that God is doing. And my heart just crying out when as long as i could stay at the altar, no reasons, but tears just began to flow down...

Praise To Be The Father Who Gave Jesus For Us!